About the “Little Voice” in your head…

Today is one of those kinds of days when I feel as though the world is waiting for something.

I don’t know what, or why I feel this way ~ but over the years, I have learned to trust my gut instincts.

Occasionally though, I have a day where I don’t do so well ~

“It was a dark and storm night…”

HA! I wish. Today is hot, icky sticky nasty poopy, and the weather has screamed “FIRE” all day. I’ve sat in my chair and watched the water get sucked from the flora and fauna right in front of my eyes.

It’s the kind of day I do NOT want to go out in. My mind slows down in the heat, and I get frustrated easier ~ I really don’t like it.

BUT!! As the dogs need to go out to do their biz, and I have to move every so often to keep from growing moldy, I’ve girded up and gone.

Late this afternoon, (for the third time today) the dogs let me know it was time to go out doors.

Grumpily ~ I concede that it must be so, and begin to try to get myself together, hunting about to find all the stuff that seems to be required.

“Harnesses ~ check.

Leashes ~ check.

Wait ~ Where did I put the harnesses??


Now ~ Where did I leave the leashes??

Poop bags… gotta have poop bags…Where ARE the poop bags?



…on and on this went. I’m beginning to get mad at myself, the dogs are sitting in their kennels waiting for SOMEONE to figure out what the hell is going on…

FINALLY, I get myself all squared away, the dogs in their harnesses, leashes attached, and…

DOODLEBUGS. (^%#@$%$) (!!!!)

I can’t find my phone.

I’m inclined at this point to just go outdoors without the stupid thing.

My Little Voice says “FIND YOUR PHONE.”

Me? I’m hot and grumpy, and arguing with myself ~ telling me I don’t need my phone, it’s only a quick trip outdoors…It will be okay, right?


After some (many) minutes of arguing, I (at last) locate my phone, make sure it is charged, and go to put it in my pocket…

And I can’t FIND my pocket.

I then discovered ~ my pants were on inside out.

eyup!!! Inside out. Seams and tags, wavin’ in the wind…

Always, ALWAYS pay attention to the little voice in your head.


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been a long time

Life is so…crazy? batty? busy?


At the moment, I am sitting still ~ watching a video instead of the Olympics. I’m tired of swimming coverage, gymnastics, volleyball ~ that is pretty much all there is at the beginning of the show… that and bicycling.

Is okay, U.S is ahead in the medal count for now, I will watch tomorrow during the day.

Since last I word splattered all over the place…

I am living in my own apartment now, I’m lonely as hell, and hating the lack of yard. Tried to make up for it by having plants on the little deck, but the heat from the roof of the portico below me kills everything. I tried putting up things to block the heat, but the management said that was a no no. I’ve let everything die back ~ kept the succulents for my sister ~ whenever I may get that way again. Once they are gone, the pots and stuff go away to storage in hopes that I can find something/where I can grow things again.

OR until I get tired and sell off all the pots and things in my yard sale in the spring.

I’m thinkin’ that will be what happens, I’m tired of fighting. I don’t even know what I want anymore, so why fight?

Never in my life did I think that I would feel so lost.

Maybe soon I’ll just do what I want to do, and screw the expectations that I set for myself a long time ago.

Almost is tomorrow.  g’night moon.




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